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If my weight is just a number, why does it scare me so much?
Created on 2003-05-27 17:46:06 (#1082519), last updated 2007-04-05
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Basic Info BioThis is a journal dedicated to food - unfortunately. It contains everything concerning my ed (if you can call it that).
I came to America 10 months ago and gained 15 lbs in 4 months. I became bulimic for about two months which scared the shit out of me. So I tried to stop it. I was successful purging-wise. Unfortunately that doesn't help with the binging.
I hate looking at myself, it makes me sick.I hate that my old clothes don't fit anymore and I hate it that I can't wear a bathing suit anymore without being disgusted. So I need to lose.
But I can't stop eating. I am obsessed with food.It's all I think about. I am afraid all the time when the next binging attack comes. And I hate that, too. I want to be "normal" again. Just eat and not always worry.
Yep, that's the short sad story.
I came to America 10 months ago and gained 15 lbs in 4 months. I became bulimic for about two months which scared the shit out of me. So I tried to stop it. I was successful purging-wise. Unfortunately that doesn't help with the binging.
I hate looking at myself, it makes me sick.I hate that my old clothes don't fit anymore and I hate it that I can't wear a bathing suit anymore without being disgusted. So I need to lose.
But I can't stop eating. I am obsessed with food.It's all I think about. I am afraid all the time when the next binging attack comes. And I hate that, too. I want to be "normal" again. Just eat and not always worry.
Yep, that's the short sad story.
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